Where Does the Time Go?

OK, not the best blogging person lately.  We have a full, busy season in the spring, in addition to Kyuki Do, we also have baseball, softball, t-ball and not to forget Crappies are spawning this time of year.  Sat. May 7th is our official fishing season opener!  So when I'm not on the mat, at a baseball diamond, you can find me on any river in the Chippewa Valley.  (Smile)

I am also 8 months quit and 30 pounds heavier.  I was supposed to not gain more than 10 lbs.  What happened?  I suspect it has a lot to do with my inability to say NO to more than one crutch at a time.  Can't smoke so Hey how bout a Latte?  A piece of chocolate, or two, or three.....  I did manage to give up soda.  (small victory)  I chew alot of gum.  The dentist has requested that I only chew Trident, save my teeth some agony.  BTW I have two... yes two cavities starting to form.  I am beginning to believe that I am suffering more than I wanted to for not smoking in 8 months.  At what point does obesity become an issue and Doctors wish I would be a smoker and not overweight?  I am still a risk for cancer, but now I'm sure other factors are keying in.  Like am I now in line for diabetes, heart problems?  I don't know, but I bet Docs still prefer me as a non smoker.  I have been told that quitting smoking has adverse effects on my metabolism.  Well, thanks a lot I would have loved to known that little detail, before I quit.  I would have liked to know that I would end up depressed due to the fact that none of my clothes fit me.
Hmmm.... guess I will have to go Shoppin! (I feel better already.)
I have a ton of excuses, little self control, (at least for food) and what feels like high blood pressure.  I actually have great blood pressure, but it takes very little to make blood pound through my body like a freight train late for its destination.  I really believed that this was going to get easier, that I would slip into the non smoking crowd easily.  It's not that way, I am in limbo. I am in a hard spot and I can't wait until this is as easy as breathing.  Until then, I pray for peaceful and tranquil thoughts.