OK, not the best blogging person lately. We have a full, busy season in the spring, in addition to Kyuki Do, we also have baseball, softball, t-ball and not to forget Crappies are spawning this time of year. Sat. May 7th is our official fishing season opener! So when I'm not on the mat, at a baseball diamond, you can find me on any river in the Chippewa Valley. (Smile)
I am also 8 months quit and 30 pounds heavier. I was supposed to not gain more than 10 lbs. What happened? I suspect it has a lot to do with my inability to say NO to more than one crutch at a time. Can't smoke so Hey how bout a Latte? A piece of chocolate, or two, or three..... I did manage to give up soda. (small victory) I chew alot of gum. The dentist has requested that I only chew Trident, save my teeth some agony. BTW I have two... yes two cavities starting to form. I am beginning to believe that I am suffering more than I wanted to for not smoking in 8 months. At what point does obesity become an issue and Doctors wish I would be a smoker and not overweight? I am still a risk for cancer, but now I'm sure other factors are keying in. Like am I now in line for diabetes, heart problems? I don't know, but I bet Docs still prefer me as a non smoker. I have been told that quitting smoking has adverse effects on my metabolism. Well, thanks a lot I would have loved to known that little detail, before I quit. I would have liked to know that I would end up depressed due to the fact that none of my clothes fit me.
Hmmm.... guess I will have to go Shoppin! (I feel better already.)
I have a ton of excuses, little self control, (at least for food) and what feels like high blood pressure. I actually have great blood pressure, but it takes very little to make blood pound through my body like a freight train late for its destination. I really believed that this was going to get easier, that I would slip into the non smoking crowd easily. It's not that way, I am in limbo. I am in a hard spot and I can't wait until this is as easy as breathing. Until then, I pray for peaceful and tranquil thoughts.
