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The Best New Year Memory

I get excited over the New Year every year!   It has special meaning for me, besides being a new beginning.  It is a constant date with a great memory for me.  Rewind with me if you will, to the New Year 2002, only seconds old.  I was at my brothers house, with all my siblings and their significant others.  We just screamed "Happy New Year!"  Everyone was kissing and hugging their loves.... everyone except me. (insert tear)  My brother in law to be, looks at me, gathers me up in his arms and says in his beautiful southern drawl  "Aww, Cindee, ur times' a comin' grl.!  I predict it'll be this year!"  He laughs and hugs me again.  It was the new year, my brother claimed he needed his rest and kicked us out,  I decided that I needed more New Year action so my sister and aforementioned brother in law take me to a local bar where we knew we'd find our old friends.  Said friends were definitely there, we hugged and welcomed each other to the New Year!  As I was finishing up the line of friends, I got their extremely hot cousin that I had a crush on my entire life!  "Happy New Year Cindy" he beams at me.  He then promptly pulled me in for a hug, one that I wished would never end.  That was a wish that came true for me. That hot cousin is now my husband, and I am looking forward to a Happy New Year hug and smile just like the one I got back then. We got engaged Valentines Day 2002, and we married in August 2002.    If your reading this my love, thank you for being my wish come true, Happy New Year and please, don't forget to kiss me!

The Nitty Grittttty of It All

OK Peeps, I have finally started doing some research on Blogging.  In fact I am reading "Blogging For Dummies', by Susannah Gardner.  If you want to check out her blog or books click here.  I realize I may have made some mistakes in blogging.  If I have offended you by not commenting on your comments I apologize, or if I talked about you and accidentally offend you I apologize for that too.  I also want you to know that I do try to not use names, some of you know who I'm talking about when I say my oldest child, my youngest boy, things of that nature.  I describe my children that way to avoid confusion more than anything.  Most people don't know who I'm talking about when I say Serena, it is clearer for them if I say my oldest daughter.  I found out that there is a code of ethics in blogging and was previously unaware of this too. The "Blogging for Dummies" Code of Ethics are listed here:

• Truth Telling and Honesty
• Admit Mistakes
• Dialogue

 There is an online discussion for ethics which you can check out by clicking here. 

Now that we have all that cleared up, I was reading my past posts to see how I've done.  My honest opinion is that I know I can do better.  My more recent posts make me look like life has been peaches and cream, I wish I could say it has been 100% of the time, in truth its been a struggle for me to maintain my cool.  I feel like Jekyll and Hyde! During the daytime I'm happy go lucky, smiley, joking with my co workers.  I'm good until all the static in the house starts.  Then I get jittery, my answers are short and curt, I can feel my blood pressure rise.  I avoid contact with my family, my husband reminds me to love up the kids.  What kind of life is this?  Is quitting smoking worth it?  When I can single out a kid, I do.  Yesterday, I was reading a book when my youngest boy wormed into my blanket.  I rolled into him and squished him, uncontrollable giggles rise from the blanket!  "Whats going on Buddy?" I ask. 
"You're squishin' me!" he squeals with delight, as he tries to wiggle free.  I yank my blanket off him and pull him into a big bear hug, which he returns enthusiastically. "I love you Mom" he tells me.  I get a tear in my eye, "I love you too Bud!"  Why can't I stay like this I wonder?  This is the mom they enjoy, not the one who bites their heads off for minute details.  It's stupid, even my Dr. is mystified by my lingering anger issues.  He believes they should be over too.  I won't take the anxiety medication, he believes the depression meds are useless since I can display happiness for a least half the day and both of us agree that nicotine replacement is a dumb idea since all the nicotine is outta my system.  I'm not sure where that leaves me other than being similar to bipolar Jekyll and Hyde.
So that's the nitty gritty, the good the bad and the ugly.  I'm a work in progress and so is my blog.  I promise to my family and to my readers that my blog and I will try to be better behaved!